Congratulations are in order!


Hi all!

If you are reading this post, chances are good that the title applies to you.

I have just finished the somewhat depressing chore of cleaning out my blogroll. In addition to removing all of the completely dead and gone blogs, I went through and found all the blogs that seem to be lingering lifelessly on the web and put them in their own category, “Comatose.” It surprised me how many of the blogs I was following a year ago are no longer active. This got me thinking, I should congratulate all those who are still maintaining their blogs on a once-a-month or more basis! So,

Pallas Cat

This is a Pallas' Cat at the Cheyenne Mountain Zoo in Colorado Springs wishing you a warm "Congratulations!" He's more excited than he looks.

CONGRATULATIONS to all of you who are listed on my Blogroll in Detail page and who have not fallen into the Comatose category! I’m very excited to see how many of you are still writing!

You are all AWESOME!

Hope your weeks are going well!

-DE


Digging In


Hello all!

After last night’s post promising a real post today, I suddenly realized that I don’t know what to write about today. So I’m just going to briefly talk about how school is going.

I, as some of you may know, am a linguistics major. I study language as a scientific phenomenon. One of my favorite pastimes is language creation. I derive great pleasure from making syntax trees. I love looking at how language changes over the centuries.

I knew that I had this love from the time I was eleven or twelve. Unfortunately for me, schools don’t really offer linguistics as a course of study until college. Furthermore, community colleges don’t really offer any linguistics either. So I had to wait until I was 21 before I could start really digging into linguistics academically.

Now that I’m actually studying it for real, with lectures and readings and studies, I have something to say: I love it!

I’m currently taking two undergraduate upper-division linguistics courses, as well as one graduate-level course, and I am so far enjoying (almost) every minute of it! After waiting ten years for the opportunity to “officially” study in this field, I can finally say that I am truly and thoroughly enjoying my studies!

I can also say, after taking one sociolinguistics course last semester (about political and social issues of language in the United States), that I have extremely limited interest in sociology or sociolinguistics. I wasn’t sure, but now that I’ve taken a course in that area, I am quite positive. I like language form and structure, and I like psychological aspects of language (including language acquisition), but I’m not so keen on studying the social or societal implications of language varieties, except as they concern linguistic structural changes over time. In short, I’m in it for the grammar.

So anyways, I’m quite happy to finally be able to focus in on my academic love.

Hope everyone’s doing well!

-DE


I see posts in this blog’s future…


Um, hi all.

I have been terribly negligent in my blogger’s blogging duties. Over four months since my last post, and not even a Merry Christmas or Happy New Year.

Normally this is a sign of a dead blog, like when a blogger seems to have forgotten that s/he even has a blog at all.

Well, I’m here to tell you, I do plan on continuing this blog. Hopefully tomorrow I’ll get a real post up. I just wanted to go ahead and announce my return tonight so that I’ll feel more obligated to actually write something in the morning.

I’ll also be making my rounds to everyone else’s blogs tomorrow, and I’ll go through my blogroll to make sure there are no dead links or anything.

So sorry I went AWOL the last few months. I’m looking forward to getting back into the flow here on WP!

See you quite soon!

-DE


Notice about my editing habits…


Hello once again. Sorry for posting four times in one day, but I just wanted to let you know something. I push the “Publish” button before I edit my posts. The reason I wanted to point this out is because I realize that many of you receive my posts via email as soon I as push “Publish.” This is just a gentle notice that sometimes it would be better for you to read my posts on my actual website rather than in the email you receive. The website will always be up-to-date with editing and corrections and such, while the emails only contain the typo-laden first drafts of my posts.

For your convenience, I’ll try to get better about editing before publishing. With the 3-parter I just published, I wanted to keep writing while I was on a roll, so I saved all the editing until the end. Next time I’ll just publish all three at the same time, after editing all of them, instead of publishing and then going back for editing.

Okay, sorry for the interruption. Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

-DE


Anglicanism and Church-hunting, Part 3


Hello. This is Part 3 of a three-part series. Part 1 was about the two important parts of a church or church service, namely form and meaning. Part 2 was about Anglicanism as I see it. This, Part 3, is about my current issues in finding a church.

Upon seeing Part 2 in its published form, I must apologize for how lengthy it is. I tried to avoid that by making this a 3-part series, but apparently it perhaps should have been 4 parts instead. Oh well.

So, now to my current issue of trying to find a church. As you’ve probably gleaned by now, I am pretty firm in my beliefs about my ideal church. Neurotic, in fact. This is why I’ve been putting off the search for a church for the last month. I knew it would be difficult for me.

Let’s begin here by addressing the topic of church itself. That is, why do Christians even need to go to church? Well, there are a lot of reasons. For one thing, being part of a church gives you a community who has beliefs that are similar to yours. It’s a support group of sorts. It lets your network of friends include those who share your religious beliefs. That’s pretty important for anyone. Churches also serve as a base of operations for ministry. If you want to get active in your religion, a great place to start is at a church. For a Christian, this is an important way to serve the needs of others. It’s an act of stewardship, giving back to God and his service some of the time, talents, and resources that he has given you. Churches can also be places of learning and delving deeper into your beliefs.  But all of these functions can be filled by other organizations as well (often by “para-church” organizations).

The primary reason to go to church, I think, is to worship God. That is, to worship God as a body of believers. I think the Scriptures are pretty clear that God delights in our coming together for worship as a people. It is one of the most authentic expressions of believers as the Body of Christ. For us humans, it’s a healing experience. After letting ourselves drift into our own intentions, coming together to focus on God as a single body of believers can help us realign with his will and with his image. It’s a beautiful thing.

That said, I think that God, in his infinite creativity, has created us to respond differently to his presence. In other words, God made different forms of worship resonate more strongly with some people than with others. This I truly believe. As I’ve said, I am quite fond of “liturgical” worship, that is, worship that follows set, eloquent, somewhat somber forms. That is how I react to God. My favorite image of God is as “High King of Heaven.” Thus, when I enter his presence, what I feel is his majesty and might, his mercy and magnificence. A lot of “m” words, apparently. But anyway, my most natural response is spiritual prostration and awe. Thus, despite my 15 years at a Christian school wherein we had to attend a very non-liturgical style chapel service once a week, I still find that style of worship awkward and foreign. It just doesn’t resonate with me. As a matter of fact, that 15 years served mainly to alienate me permanently from that style of worship. I personally feel irreverent towards God in that setting. As Erasmus said, “God does not much mind bad grammar, but he does not take any particular pleasure in it.” In other words, I don’t think that God himself is in any way offended by non-liturgical worship, but I don’t think he necessarily prefers it either.

On the other hand, there are those with the opposite reaction. They find liturgical worship stifling and un-joyful. I get that. I understand that not everyone can really worship the way I do. That is why I actually appreciate denominations. They allow us to worship God in an environment that moves our souls. That is how the “form” part of a church is important in practical terms.

The “meaning” part is important because it allows us to come together and worship God without getting distracted by stupid and petty debates (or major debates, for that matter).

So, now comes the problem of church-hunting. We know we need to find somewhere to plug-in as Christians, somewhere to join the Body of Christ in worship, but we have these opinions and preferences about different forms and meanings. In my case, I have trouble worshipping in a non-liturgical setting, and I have trouble worshipping alongside people who seem heretical to me (whether they actually are or not is a separate issue, one which is pretty dicey and, ultimately, not the responsibility of humans to decide). I guess that would be better put, I have trouble worshipping alongside people whose views contrast sharply in important ways with my own. The unfortunate part here is that, as I think I mentioned in Part 1, for some reason I can only find churches that conform to my preferred form or meaning, but never both.

Because of that, it is becoming obvious that I need to examine the reasons for my preferences. As I mentioned in one of the other Parts, I know that some of my preferences are a result of familiarity. That, I think, is the least reasonable type of preference to hold fast to. For one thing, familiarity is a fluid thing. It changes. And since I live in a completely different city now, I shouldn’t be surprised if there are certain unfamiliar aspects in all of the churches around here. Their address, for instance, is completely different from the address of any church I’ve been to before. That is a mundane example, perhaps, but I’ve been surprised at some of the mundane things that I thought were important before I really examined my stance. (For example, I grew up in a church where the acolytes tied their cinctures on their left side; it took me a couple of years to accept that anyone could tie them on the right and not be in violation of some heavenly dress code. Stupid, but true.)

On the other end of the spectrum, I think that a preference about meanings related to God himself is pretty important, since the point of gathering is to worship God in unity. If we’re all worshipping different gods, there isn’t really much unity at all. So, that is pretty important.

Then there’s a lot that falls somewhere in between. How much do should we pray to the Saints? Can we sing songs other than hymns? Should the clergy (or people leading the service) wear special vestments? Can priests be married? Should we have communion every week or once a month or quarter? All of these things are important in some way, especially to someone like me who sees symbolism in everything, right down to the color of the carpet (or presence thereof). I live in a world of metaphor, so I like to worship God in a place where the metaphors lead me into that state of worship. What I’m finding, though, is that there is no church on Earth that fits completely into my vision. Nor should there be. Many of my complaints are analogous to saying that God isn’t doing what I want him to do. Who is the creature, and who is the Creator?

So, after a ton of research into local churches and deliberation about my own values, I finally decided to try going to the Roman Catholic church that’s about a block away from my apartment. That’s where I went this morning. It was quite wonderful. The Roman Catholic liturgy is tolerably similar to the Anglican liturgy, which helped immensely. I have some issues with certain aspects of Roman Catholic theology and such, but I’m finding that many of my difficulties in this area are not actually theologically-based at all. So, even if I don’t agree with all of their philosophies, at least we’re worshipping the same God. That’s a big improvement over any attempts I’ve had to worship in an Episcopal church these days.

Now, of course, I have new problems emerging, such as whether or not to actually become Catholic. After all, being a non-Catholic, I can’t really fully participate in the sacraments of this church even if I decide to continue attending it. But these decisions can take their time a little bit.

I keep remembering in C.S. Lewis’s The Screwtape Letters, chapter 2, when Screwtape is advising his nephew about how to keep a Christian from truly plugging into his church. (For those who are unfamiliar with the book, Screwtape is a devil writing letters of advice to his nephew. The nephew is a bit like a guardian angel, but in reverse. The nephew’s “client” is a young Christian man) : “But fortunately [the eternal, universal Church] is quite invisible to these humans. All your patient sees is the half-finished, sham Gothic erection on the new building estate… Make his mind flit to and fro between an expression like ‘the body of Christ’ and the actual faces in the next pew… Provided that any of those neighbours sing out of tune, or have boots that squeak, or double chins, or odd clothes, the patient will quite easily believe that their religion must therefore be somehow ridiculous.”

While that particular quote is talking about getting a Christian to lose his faith altogether, I keep feeling it apply even just to finding a church. At the moment, my faith itself is still quite strong, but I do notice when looking at churches that I take note of things like those in the quote, or like how difficult it is to park in the parking lot, or how the lighting is bad. Things that are so unimportant, but that keep me from even trying to attend a service there.

So, that’s about it for Part 3. We go to church primarily to worship God. Issues of form and meaning are important, because they can help or hinder you in your worshipping, but personal preferences can get out of hand.

For myself, I think I’ll keep attending this Catholic church for the time being, but I will still always be an Anglican at heart. :-)

-DE

P.S. This Part also ended up longer than intended. Sorry. But just think how long this whole thing would have been if I had made it one long post! :-)


Anglicanism and Church-hunting, Part 2


Hi! This is the second part of a three part series on Churches, Anglicanism, and Church-hunting. Part 1 (my thoughts on the two most important parts of a church service, at least as far as someone in the process of looking for a church is concerned) can be found here. This post (Part 2) presents my thoughts about Anglicanism in practice and belief.

Okay, this post may end up churning up a little bit of strife because it discusses something which is currently a controversial subject (i.e., What is Anglicanism?). I’ll try to keep things general, but that will probably still step on people’s toes. So be it.

In Part 1, I said that churches (or at least church services) are made of form and meaning. In many churches, these are somewhat distinct. As an example, the Roman Catholic church outlines its meaning in several documents, perhaps most notably in its catechism. These documents can pretty much stand on their own and still present a fairly complete view of what the Catholic church believes. Meanwhile, it outlines its form in other documents, like the Missal, which contains the forms and liturgies for celebrating Mass, and in other books which outline the liturgies for other services. The purpose of these books is primarily to show the order of service, but if you just pick up a Missal and read it, you won’t necessarily learn a whole lot about the specific beliefs of the Catholic church. For that you would consult the other documents like the catechism. For the Roman Catholic church, both elements, though distinct, are pretty important.

Other churches (I’m thinking of ‘nondenominational’ churches) follow a generic, unwritten form (unwritten because it doesn’t contain specific words or prayers, but is instead mainly a pure order of events). Their meaning is also often unwritten, but it is often based on the generic evangelical tenets, which can be difficult to pin down, but become obvious once broken. The point here is that, again, the form and meaning are distinct. In this case, meaning seems to be the more important one. They will usually accept anyone who agrees with their meaning as Christians regardless of the form they use.

Now, the Episcopal church, in my opinion (though my opinion is based on some solid facts and statements from the Episcopal church itself), is trying in a way to do the reverse of the nondenominational churches. They are making the form important, but they are making the meaning unimportant. Thus, a group of people with absolutely nothing in common regarding their beliefs in God, Mankind, Creation, Morality, etc., can all be perfectly at ease in an Episcopal church as long as they say the words and do the motions. The particular meaning that an individual puts behind the words is unimportant.

I have a problem with that, and here’s why: Anglicanism, like any other denomination, is based on some type of form and meaning. In Anglicanism, though, they aren’t as distinct from each other as in other denominations. Since its founding, Anglican form and meaning have been tied together and synthesized in “The Book of Common Prayer” (BCP for short). When somebody picks up a BCP, at first glance it closely resembles the Roman Catholic Missal, except that it contains more services than just the Mass (usually known as the “Eucharist” in Anglican circles). Upon closer inspection, however, one will notice a few differences. There tend to be more prayers in the BCP. The congregation speaks a little bit more. On the whole, there is a little bit more doctrine injected into the words of the liturgy. On the other hand, if you look for an outline of Anglican belief, the closest you’ll find is the “39 Articles of Religion.” (The new BCP also includes a “catechism,” but it is really too generic to be taken as a serious outline of faith.) The 39 Articles, unlike the Catholic catechism, are quite succinct. They don’t include many specifics for things outside of the core beliefs of Anglicans.

This is because the two were meant to be used together. The Liturgy is the expression of Anglican belief. There is a phrase, Lex orandi, lex credendi. Basically, “The law of our prayers is the law of our belief.” To Anglicanism, the words, the forms, the acts of worship are a pure expression of belief. On the other hand, using the prayers alone can still create problems of non-unity in belief. (Even if two people say “We believe in One God,” one person could mean “I believe there is only One God,” while the other person means “I believe that everything is One with the god.” Bad example, but you get my point, I hope.) For this reason, from the founding of Anglicanism, we’ve had the Articles of Religion. As I recall, we started with 42, then quickly whittled it down to 39, but there have been 39 ever since. The articles define what it means to say things like “One God” to an Anglican.

But neither the Articles nor the Liturgy can stand easily on its own. Without the Articles, the liturgy becomes a hollow, rote shell of words, with no particular meaning. Without the Liturgy, the Articles become a list of inexpressible tenets. Just having the Articles without the Liturgy would be like knowing a person’s biography without actually knowing the person. There’s more to Anglican belief than just the Articles, and that is found in the Liturgy, but the Articles provide an important starting point for understanding the liturgy.

I hope I didn’t get to technical or rambling there. Here’s my point, in three simple equations:

1) Anglicanism = Liturgy + Articles

2) Anglicanism – Articles = Uninformed Liturgy

3) Anglicanism – Liturgy = Unexpressed Articles

So, here are my neurotic complaints about the current Anglican churches in North America. The Episcopal church is trying to use Equation 2 by stripping the liturgy of its underlying meaning. Meanwhile, the alternate Anglican choices that I’ve found typically try to use Equation 3 by stripping the Articles of their basic expression (which, as I mentioned above, also strips it of its nuances and, in a way, its life force). Frankly, I think that both groups have some justifying to do. I think that both are somewhat guilty of mutilating Anglicanism and then continuing to call themselves Anglican.

By the way, I feel the need here to address the concept of via media, which means “middle road.” This is a term that people often use to describe Anglican belief, but it has been used lately in a misleading way. Anglicanism was referred to as a “middle road” between Roman Catholicism and Protestantism. That is to say, we have a lot that looks Catholic, and we also have a lot that looks Protestant. There’s an old joke, “What happens when a Protestant marries a Catholic? They become Episcopalian!” It is a middle ground of sorts. Recently, people have tried to extend this term to apply to everything, essentially saying that Anglicanism, when faced with a controversy or disagreement, takes the broad middle road. That is NOT the case, historically at least. Granted we do have a lot of leeway for some issues (including but not limited to infant baptism, use of holy water, etc.).

The issue here is, again, people are trying to remove the meaning behind the Liturgy. Here’s the deal. There are certain core things that make up Christianity. All Christians, regardless of denomination, tend to agree on the core things (see C.S. Lewis’s Mere Christianity for a more detailed discussion of this idea). After that, particular denominations have some more specific beliefs about the applications of these basic Christian tenets. In Anglicanism, the Articles pretty well cover basic Christianity, and they also (together with the Liturgy) express those aspects peculiar to Anglican belief and practice. Anyone who agrees with the particularly Anglican parts can be considered Anglican (as with any other denomination). Anyone who holds to the basic Christian parts can be considered Christian (regardless of denomination, as with any other religion).

The leeway that Anglicans have is regarding things that are addressed neither by the Anglican tenets, nor by the basic Christian tenets. Thus, yes, there is leeway, but it is not like we wander down some fictional “middle road.” The leeway is intentional, not passive. If you look at where people try to apply the “middle road” concept, it often involves condoning (if not promoting) things that are unbiblical, or at least highly debatable. But condoning is not a middle road. With most of these issues, there can’t really be a middle road. Either it is okay, or else it isn’t. So no matter which way your personal beliefs lean, you can’t really walk the “middle road” because it usually doesn’t really exist.

I truly hope no one is overly offended by what I’ve written here. Keep in mind that my beliefs are deeper and more intricate than can easily be expressed in a blog post. Nonetheless, this is the basic nature of my beliefs in this area. I’ve tried to keep the specific points of contention out of this post, but you can probably guess where I stand on some of those issues. But do keep in mind, I am writing this post about Anglicanism in particular, and about Christianity in general, but not about humanity as a whole. If you aren’t Christian, there are a ton of my beliefs about specifics that I wouldn’t apply towards you. If you aren’t Anglican, there are other beliefs that I wouldn’t necessarily apply towards you. But those are discussions that should be had in person, not randomly thrown out into cyberspace.

Okay, so to summarize this post: Anglicanism needs both its Liturgy and its Articles to express and define its form and meaning. And “middle road” does not mean “happily condone anything that comes up in order to avoid controversy,” because to do so is neither a middle road nor does it avoid controversy.

Stay tuned for Part 3, which will deal with how my neurotic opinions apply to my search for a church home, as well as why we need a church home at all as Christians.

-DE

P.S. I’m writing these posts somewhat quickly and stream-of-consciousness-ly. Let me know if parts don’t make sense or if there are typos or anything.


Anglicanism and Church-hunting, Part 1


Hello. As you might have guessed from the title of this post, today’s post is part of a little series of posts that are religious in nature. Just thought I oughta give fair warning since I haven’t really gone there much with this blog.

So, these next couple of posts are about my personal beliefs and preferences about church, my views on the Anglican tradition, and my current situation of trying to find a church. This process of church-hunting has been rather difficult for me, because where church-going is concerned, I am pretty neurotic. I have strong opinions about both the form and the meaning of worship, and I’ve found that in most churches, either the form or the meaning matches my beliefs, but rarely both.

For this first post, I’ll back up for a moment and look at what I mean by form and meaning. Form is, simply put, what the people do when they are gathered to worship. What do they say? Do they do anything specific with their posture (e.g. bow, kneel, stand, sit, etc.)? Do they have a typical order of events during the service? Almost every church in existence has some structured form along these lines. (I’ve heard that some don’t, like the Quakers, but I have no personal experience with that.)

Meaning, on the other hand, is the thoughts and the beliefs behind the words, postures, order of events, etc. Two church services can look almost identical even while the two churches have nearly opposite beliefs about the nature of God and of mankind. A (perhaps simplistic) way to summarize “meaning” in one word would perhaps be “theology.” There are other areas of thought and philosophy that I would include in this category as well, but it ultimately boils down to what the church believes about God.

Now, my beliefs about meaning are complicated and difficult to explain (or at least, I don’t want to go into them too deeply in this particular post). Suffice it to say that I hold Scripture as the highest authority, followed by tradition (the ideas and practices that have held firm throughout the test of time), followed by reason (our modern insights into the topics of religion and theology). The order of these elements is of the utmost importance to me. Neither tradition nor modern reasoning is valid for me if it is in blatant contradiction or opposition to the Bible. After that, if modern reasoning takes a different stance than traditional thinking, it had better have a fantastic reason. In matters of pure theology and philosophy (but not as much for natural sciences and such), I’m much more trusting of centuries of thinkers who all agreed on something than of one person who has decided that he knows better than those thousands of people before him. As G.K. Chesterton wrote in Orthodoxy, “Tradition means giving votes to the most obscure of all classes, our ancestors… Tradition refuses to submit to that arrogant oligarchy who merely happen to be walking around.” I relate strongly to Mr. Chesterton’s sentiments on this issue. How I apply this hierarchy of authority is the part that I don’t feel like going into, and besides I think it would only stir up an unhealthy argument. For the present topic, just my hierarchy idea should suffice.

My belief about form is basically that any form is probably acceptable to God as long as it is offered as a sacrifice of self and in honor of Him who made and sustains us. That said, I have my own, rather fervent personal preferences about the issue. Form is important because it allows us diverse humans to worship God as a community. Different forms exist, and different people have different preferences. For some, a Southern Baptist church service speaks to their soul. For me, it doesn’t. I was born Episcopalian. I am now still Anglican, though not Episcopalian (for reasons related to the paragraph above). I grew up using a particular form (“liturgy”). (If you know about Anglicanism/Episcopalianism, I grew up using “Rite 2.”) I deeply appreciate the Anglican liturgy. It takes me places where I might otherwise not go on my own. It changes with the seasons but is constant with the years. I find it quite beautiful. What I’m discovering presently is that it is this underlying form that is important to me, not necessarily the specific words that lie on top of it. Still, I’m rather partial to the specific words of the Rite 2 service as a result of years of familiarity.

So, that’s about it for Part 1. To review: I think that form and meaning are the two most important things about a church. Meaning is most important, and for me, it basically follows this hierarchy of authority: Scripture first, tradition second, modern reasoning third. Form is probably less important on an eternal level, but it is important because it allows diverse humans to gather and worship as a body. I personally prefer the Anglican forms of worship (often called the Anglican liturgy). Superficially, I prefer the form known as “Rite 2.”

Stay tuned for Part 2, which will feature my opinions about Anglicanism, and later Part 3, which will talk about my current attempts at finding a church, and the importance of finding a church for a Christian. I’ll probably end up writing and publishing all 3 posts of this series today while I have the time.

-DE


Hello again


Hmm, I’m feeling a little sheepish writing a blog post now — it’s been over a month since I last posted anything.

Well, here I am. It’s autumn now, just 7 days short of October. I’m a third of the way through the semester. I’ve been more or less living on my own for roughly a month and a half (or 3 months if you go by when I moved my furniture). Crazy how this month has flown!

Here is what’s on my mind right now: …… Well, I can’t think of a concise term to sum it up, so I’ll just explain.

I have come to notice that at every stage of my education, there have been countless warnings about “things to come.” For instance, I specifically remember being told in 1st grade, “You must have perfect handwriting, or else your teachers next year won’t accept your work.” Then in 2nd Grade, “You must learn to write well in cursive, because when you get into 3rd Grade, your teachers will not accept work written in manuscript!” Then, I got to 3rd Grade, wrote in manuscript, and had absolutely no problems handing in my work. Every transition had these sorts of warnings. As we were getting ready to move from elementary school into middle school, they said, “You must never ever miss another homework assignment, or your teachers will flunk you!” After 6th grade we were told, “You must learn to manage your time extremely well, or else you’ll be left behind.” Later they said, “Next year they’ll make you read a million pages every night,” and, “You’ll have major research assignments due every week,” and, “Your life will become a living hell!”

I exaggerate.

But you get the idea. They warned us every year that the next year would be terribly difficult for us. This happened as we moved into middle school, then high school, then college, and even at my community college, where the warnings were about transitioning to a four-year university.

I have a confession. I have terrible handwriting. I still don’t write in cursive. Ever. Nor have I ever had a class wherein I turned in every assignment. Yet I still got good grades. (In fact, in one previous college course I completely skipped a major paper; I still got an A in the course.) I still have very few time-management skills. At no point have I ever had a class with extreme reading assignments or research expectations. My life, I am proud to say, is several levels above “living hell.”

Granted, several factors played into this for me. I am, I admit, a pretty good learner. I grasp concepts quickly. I apply concepts easily. Also, I went to a private, college preparatory school from preschool through 12th Grade. Plus, I generally perform excellently on tests, which is why I could usually glide through without doing my homework.

So, my point is NOT that students moving through the school system should ignore these sorts of warnings!

My point is more that, for me at least, these various transitions are never as drastic as everyone says they will be.

Maybe that’s just me, though. I tend to move through life pretty easily. I wouldn’t exactly call it apathy. And it’s not exactly just going with the flow. And, as you know if you’ve read some of my previous posts, it isn’t that I don’t ever worry about anything or stress out about stupid things. I don’t know what to call it.

I’ll give a couple of examples. First, as you may know I’m now at a major four-year university. I am a third year student, getting into upper division classes, and taking a full course load. But all those warnings about how different and difficult and terrifying university courses would be have failed to come true. They feel almost exactly like my community college courses (which, incidentally, were actually easier than many of my high school courses). The main difference is just that I’m focussing more on my major now, whereas before I had to take a bunch of liberal arts core courses.

Take another example. I, as I said, am now living on my own. I live an hour and a half from my family. I spend a lot of time alone in my apartment with my cat. I’ve had to find a grocery store, the park-n-Ride station, my bus route, my classes, etc., on my own. Everyone always talks about how scary, or at least different, living on your own is. For me, not so much. There was some stress around finding the bus and whatnot, but that would have been just as stressful if I were living at home. The actual “living on my own” part feels pretty much the same. Of course, again I find that this may be a unique situation for me, since I’ve been cooking and cleaning and whatnot for myself for several years. Plus — and I’m ashamed to say this — I see just as much of my friends now as when I lived at home.

I guess my whole situation is just unique. It’s like my entire life has been designed so that I never have any jarring changes.

I don’t think I’m complaining; I’m just reflecting.

Anyways, that was kind of a really long and rambling way of saying, “Hi everyone! I’m still alive, school and life are going well, and I’m just as pensive as ever.”

:-)

-DE


Stressors and Milestones


Hello! Happy late birthday to me!

I just recently turned 21 years old. What does that mean? Well, the obvious answer is that I can now purchase alcohol. The less popular answer is that I had to go get a new driver’s license. That’s what I did this morning. Fortunately, it only took about 2 hours because it was a Thursday morning. I had been unnecessarily stressing out about getting my new license for several weeks until I finally got it done this morning. I feel a great weight lifted off my shoulders now. Much better!

My next major upcoming stressor is that I have to learn to use Denver’s RTD system. It’s actually a decent system from what I’ve heard. It consists of both light rails and buses. Sadly, I will have to use a bus instead of a train to get from my place (actually, a nearby Park-n-Ride) to my university because there is no rail service to that area of the system. For some reason, I would so much rather use a train than a bus. I don’t know why. The good news is that Denver is working on expanding their light rail system and adding a couple of commuter rail lines as well. The bad news is that this process won’t be finished until 2018. I’ll be 28 by then, and finished with at least one of my next degrees, so I may not ever get to use the train unless I stay in the Denver area (which I might, primarily depending on job opportunities). The Colorado Springs area (where I grew up) has a remarkably inadequate system for a metro area of its size, so I’ve never had much experience with public transportation. One day I’d love to live somewhere with a full metro transportation system.

Anyway, tomorrow morning I have to learn to use the Park-n-Ride, get on the right bus, and get off at the right stop because I have a group meeting with my academic advisor. That makes it a little bit more stressful because I actually have to be somewhere, so it will actually matter if I miss my stop. Needless to say, I’ll be leaving my place plenty early tomorrow.

By the way, my summer class ended this last Sunday, which means that I am finished with my Associate’s Degree! And I earned it with a 4.0 GPA! Another milestone, and another weight off my shoulders! Hooray!

-DE


Cardboard Is Versatile.


With all of my boxes that I’ve been using to haul stuff to my new place, I’ve discovered the versatility of corrugated cardboard and cardboard boxes. Whenever I discover that I need something, I’m finding that I can turn to cardboard to solve many problems. For instance, my box-spring on my bed has a big hole in the lining underneath it, which means my cat can get in and out. That would be fine, except that I have to bring him back and forth with me when I’m spending a few nights in my old city. If he figures out that it is a traveling day, he hides in the box-spring and I cannot get to him (until feeding time, of course). The solution? Cardboard! I made a lovely barrier to keep him out.

Similarly, when I first moved here, he kept trying to jump through the railing at the top of my staircase onto the stairs, which are slippery and have lots of room for falling through to the ground. I had to make some sort of barrier. What should I use? Of course! Cardboard! I made a barrier thing around the railing. Now, not only can the cat not get through, but I can store stuff against the railing that might otherwise have fallen through.

And, of course, there are the more boring uses as well, such as using the boxes for bookcases and whatnot. Of course, some day I’ll get more real bookcases, but for now the boxes will do. Especially because I’ve just purchased a set of pots/pans and some other kitchen essentials. Cooking food on the stovetop is something that cardboard is NOT a good solution for…

11 more days until I’m finished with my associate’s degree! 19 more days until I start classes for my bachelor’s!

-DE

P.S. Is it wrong to keep tagging my posts with “postaweek2011″ if I’m not actually posting every week?


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